what is love without hate?
what is abstinence without addiction?
what is pain without pleasure?
what is gone when you never had?
what is everything when you had nothing?
what is the truth when there are no lies?
what am i when there's no you?

too much hormones and unwanted images keep popping into my mind when i dont seem to need it.
and cause of it.
someone thinks that i cant control myself.
its not true.
i just cant control my hormones.


"and you are by my side.
we're talking about our lives.
like we've known each other forever.
time flies by.
with the sound of your voice.
its close to paradise.
with the end surely near."


oh hello varien.
its nice to see you again.
after so long.
and it was a nice talk too.

"and if i could only stop the car and hold on to you.
and never let go.
i'll never let go."


and i talked to jared too.
and i wanna tell him not to worry.
that everything will take its place.
i can only pray for him and hope that he'll do well in his exams.


he's not the only one doing his exams.
so i'm praying for all.

so i'm not going to talk to him tonight.
and the rest of the week.
so that he can just study.
but somehow.
i dont think he will.
king of headaches.
i think he can handle it.
so when i say that i'm not going to do it.
means i'm not going to do it.


i got so much i want to say.
but this is all i want to say to you

"why dont we hit restart?
and pause it at our favourite parts.
we'll skip the goodbyes."

everyone say hello to my DONG friend called nick.
and i see him every monday for biochem.
and he has been my saviour even though his ego is just about as huge and a t-rex.
but he makes me happy when my brain cells are dying.
thank you my DONG friend.
who taught me the joys of wikipedia.
to know the meaning to words like DONG and BUGGER.
you rock.



i'm off to the library later.
and get as many notes as i can.
so that i can get through my semester knowing what is going on.
at least i got dunfu to accompany me.
thank you thank you!



i dont know if i can tahan or not.
not being on the phone.
but hey.
if i've been through months not talking on the phone.
i think a few days will be just fine.
i know it will be.


it just isnt the way you think it is.
that wasnt the reason why we broke up.
there were more than one reason.
and i just feels that you should know about it now.
just not yet.